viewing

the viewing was yesterday, got yelled at along the way because we were running late, by only 10 minutes. walked to the chapel, saw my whole family. the little kids were able to tell me and my sister apart, it made me smile. saw kayla and kaelin, and i gave them a big hug. socialized for a bit, especially with my cousin from modesto that i normally don't get to see unless it's a big party. caught up with her and her boyfriend, who just got out of juvi, haha. i ate a brownie shaped cookie, it was awesome.

pinky promised my little cousin i wouldn't tell anyone what she had told me.

then we prayed the rosary. a rough.. 20 minutes. i could admit, i got a littttle sleepy. but shameful to say, me and my sister silently cracked up when we looked at each other, because we realized that when the priest would say "hail mary" it sounded like this:

"Hail Mary, full of grace, the lord is with the, BWEE-uh-MA women.."

so i told her to go outside for a bit, to avoid my dad getting mad at us. i thought it was a horrible thing to laugh about it, but what made things worse was the the hail mary is said multiple times during a rosary prayer.

it was hard listening to the eulogies. no one was able to hold their tears in, not even kuya rich, and trust me, he's a tough guy. big john went up, and he was only able to say one word until he broke down, and it was a wiggly, "i'm.." i'm guessing he was gonna say, "i'm glosar's younger brother."

imagine losing a kuya. honestly, i can't imagine. walking up to the alter, it was hard. it was REALLY hard. i remember he'd crack jokes to me and kayla whenever he'd see us. he's always laugh, and the image i remember of him was sunglasses, beer in his hand, shorts, a white t and chanelas, always. much of a laid back guy who'd lend me, my sister, and kayla his truck at a party when there'd be no comfortable place in the house to sit. i'm gonna miss him, alot.

he died at the age of 38